The mistress of self reinvention

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If you have been following me for a while, you might have noticed that for me, nothing stays exactly how it is for a long period of time. Just have a look at my Instagram Feed, and you'll know what I mean (Hint: I simply do not manage to stick with one theme throughout my whole feed and tend to change my profile picture more often than most people I know even upload pictures ). But this is something that goes far beyond my Instagram feed, and even further than dying my hair or choosing my outfits. Fact is, I love change, and whatever the reason for it, I never really liked things to stay the way they are.

I like the idea of calling myself a "Mistress of self reinvention" (Yes, I got that from The Girl on the Train and immediately thought I had to take it over). It's like I found the expression that perfectly sums up my life. Because for me, it has always been like that. I have been embracing change since a young age. When I was 10 years old, I decided I wanted to learn how to play the guitar. Until I actually got a guitar, and after a few months found out about that djembe class which I eventually attended instead, for a couple of months until I no longer found pleasure in doing so, either. And while I always had gymnastics as my big passion forming most parts of my childhood and teenage years, whatever I have been showing interest in next to that, did not really give me satisfaction and motivation in the long run.

Now, at the tender age of 21, my ways of embracing change have been replaced by more meaningful decisions, and I find myself having lived in six different countries and pursuing my second career path within 4 years, and with absolutely no idea about where I am heading off to next. But it is exactly that change that I feel keeps me progressing forward. When things stay the same for too long, I just get bored and lose motivation. After all, what’s the point in going on if things will just stay the same? I don't like the idea of building a comfort zone around me and staying in that same.

While others are scared of the idea of change, it defines me. One moment, I like to be blonde, the other I feel like running to the next drug store to dye my hair in the darkest shade possible, not wanting to wait another day or week until I actually find time to go to the hairdresser (Trust me, I've had all hair cuts and colours already). No, I am obsessed by what is called an instant gratification, wishing for my changes to happen right away.

Maybe that constant desire for change is the reason why I never settle for anything in life, never manage to make up my mind and the reason I fight with all means against taking decisions regarding my future. Truth is, I live in the moment, go for my gut and have no idea about what is coming next. And how could I, knowing that next week I could have a totally different mindset than I do have today. I certainly don’t want to become stagnant in life and be doing the same thing everyday always ending up with the same results. I know this would drive me insane, and I would feel like I was not really achieving anything productive and forward-moving through the days.

WHAT I AM WEARING

Mistress of self reinvention; this is an expression that could also define my style. I tend to define my style as clean and contrasted, mixing different styles but usually sticking to the same colour palettes. Today I like all things strictly black and white, but it could totally be that tomorrow I'd show up in an all-pink Juicy Couture velour jumpsuit (Just kidding, my pink days ended when I was around 16 years old). But sometimes, I wake up in the morning and feel like mixing and matching all the patterns I find in my closet, like this gorgeous plaid cape with fake-fur neck and my green leo print trousers.